You can see some first cake that I can make in my new home. It's so fun and exciting in making cake alone by my self, without need see the recipe, just follow my mind, but God help of course, without teacher or attend the cake course and then abrakadabra, I can present many delicious cake that I never imagine before. It's amazing, good taste.

After making a lot of work in painting, drawing , making books, making films, cartoon animations, makes the program forecast the fate of human, painting on fabric, making purses pencils, make  batik clothing, create works of embroidery, making beautiful name cards, make a beautiful basket of fragrant, and which I now present abrakadabraaa sim salabim a real new work that is a home that I can feel come into inside that home.  a home that was born into the world without concepts, with help only by 2 carpenter, without plan, without teachers and without the assistance or support anyone. All doing by this my magic hand only with the guidance of God's love .

 that is truly magical and real life with this hand. All just flowed out without plan from the start looking for land, process land certificate, home design drawing, selecting colors and image decorating items and arrange  or adjust the placement of objects - objects to select and plant trees one by one. All done by the love of God alone. not me at all.

because I can not do anything at all, without God love help. Can you imagine, how I can do it all alone. Because last month I broke of my right hand when accident hit by the motorcycle , I cried and grieved every day I worry about this magic hand can no longer help me to painting, and even to write a short letter I could not. oh my God I'm really sad, cried every days waiting healness my hand not patient., when and when ?????..........   

       this is a big major test of the God. Even though I often feel a pain test in my life, I ever bankrupt many times because been cheated by a priest, lost money so big in stock markets, make me so low self esteem and depression. lost of my dad and my mum, and almost lost of my brother,   almost paralyzed when I fall from a well, and now my hand is broken and I was attacked by the rubella virus makes me high heat up to 40 "c and redness and swollen around the thigh to my face, all of the body, making my face became swollen like a lion's face. and makes me hard to puff for 7 days because my high temperature, I have tried drink 100cc oil from church, dulcolax but  still not success to puff, then in pain and despair waiting for more than 3 hour in pain, then I make a deal with God, “God if I  can dificate without pain or bleeding”, I will vow to  repent and 7 o’clock tommorow morning, I will go to perniagaan church , to ask baptize. Then amazing, in only 5 minute that happen reaction so I can defecate smoothly without bleeding or pain. So I go to the church, but they suggest me to wait until 1 years to get baptize after pass the bible test examination. But then make me amaze suddenly my friend Lidia give me the brosure of Tiberias church will doing baptize, without waiting 1 years. Without pay, without test bible examination.  so without think I rust just go alone to pay my vow to God . He have heal me, so I must pay my vow.  Tommorow morning I come baptize with more than 300 people together in the swimming pool at the kelapa gading hotel by the Pastor docter Yesaya Pariadji in Tiberias Church , to left Buddha that I follow faithfully since my born, and follow Jesus right now and change my baptist name be Lidia Meiriyanah Hartono. It’s amazing story in my life.

But today I'm thankful and grateful I was healed of all sickness, my hands are getting better and started to work again. I wish eventhough my arrival to this world not eternal, just temporary, maybe only 50 years old, but I want coming to earth is worthied, usefull, I do not want just born, grow, married,  getting old, sick, die and finally left this world with nothing, just wasting the time that God have gave to me.  but I hope my life and then after my die  can keep inspire more people to glorify God and be a special people for himself and useful to the nation and the country . and continue to take advantage of every time of birth into the world to improve high soul achievement, work and raise awareness of the spirit within our self to find our trueness self.  actually unnecessary in looking at temple, many places of worship or wherever,but is already inside in every human being if they wants to go into inside him.

The most beautiful book is a book that is within ourselves. The most amazing movie is a movie that is within ourselves. not in theaters or go meditation at the mountains.

We can live and also able to increase self-awareness when we working in the middle of communities.